Insights from Healing (USA)
by Lynette Ford

I am writing from bed, recovering from surgery for Crohnis Disease; the illness was so severe that I had to have my appendix and parts of my intestines removed. I reflect on my situation being as positive as possible and having faith that God will take care of me. My illness is a journey, I am preparing my body and mind to grow in Spirit.

The Angels. One night I lay in bed, in. pain unable to move. When I called out to my family for help no one heard me so I began to pray. The pain was so great that I felt I was dying so I asked for my life and made a vow to never take that life for granted but to cherish and respect it. Then I felt the presence of angels all around my bed and a green energy surrounding them (I would later see the same angels in the recovery room after my surgery). In the presence of the angels I felt at peace; I was made aware that I would not die and there was more of me, more of my spirit. I was shown another part of me existed and was kept away from the pain, away from the dying I felt. I was amazed and a great joy leapt out of my heart. The joy was not only for myself but the greater message of the angels is pure, that we all exist out of a fate of unconditional love. All of what gives our lives dimension and purpose reflects a greater aspect of being, where we are known for what is in our hearts and valued for the individuality we bring into creation.

Patchwork Quilt. With the awareness that another aspect of my being existed I began to view my life as a patchwork quilt. The patches on this quilt are made of the experiences, efforts, and individual qualities of my life. Once sewn together or integrated - this quilt is a sum of who we are and its purpose broadens with each connection, each patch we sew on until finally we are complete. I began sewing on another patch when the angels opened my eyes to experiencing another aspect of myself. This aspect began its emergence through illness, a spiritual birth that is my journey though Crohnis.

Preparing. A few nights after the angelic visit, I went outside and saw a greenish ring around the moon, the same color as the angelic energy I saw. I took that as a sign that changes were happening. I began to prepare for something I sensed but did not have the words for. The first part of preparing includes being honest. Honesty is fulfilling because its intent is clear and it opens channels to the source of inner truths. I also began to prepare by trusting myself and God. I knew that I would be out of work for an indefinite time and that my previous goals would need to be amended. Then I began to worry, everything seemed so crazy! Looking on the situation, I let go of my fears to gain freedom, new insights. Holding on was ego blocking me from making changes. I began to look on my worries with the affirmation that "everything will work for the highest good". I also learned: be strong in your truth, in the purpose you feel within,for it will guide you through all challenges and offer understanding to gain self-balance.

Is This Really Me? Crohnis, for me, is an illness that triggered a series of energetic shifts in my body. To cope with the illness I was pressed into making adjustments in my deepest spiritual levels. I am growing stronger inspirit and my faith is supporting my health by offering balance to the chaos I am going through.

Inner truths also anchored me for the changes I did not anticipate: how my awareness was altered and how my body changed by Crohnis. Before my surgery, Crohnis had no visible affects on me; but as I was preparing myself inwardly I felt subtle changes happening. I would feel a heightened energy behind my eyes or feel super-imposed on my surroundings. This lead to a period of shifting, where I had to recognize my boundaries and balance the energies of my body and spirit.

Helping with this are memories or visions that offer insights to sort out the pieces of my being and the nature of my purpose. These memories and visions are a review of the experiences, choices, and changes that led me to this point n lessons that also would assist me in my current situation. These are important because they are pieces of what makes us whole, of what has filled our lives in eternity. Once integrated in the body, through conscience recollection or acknowledgment, they are channels to tap into resources of universal spirit.

The journey still continues and for those on their own quest I wish you the best and know you have my support. Through frustration, we seek encouragement. Not only encouragement but em-power-ment that nothing is an obstacle to what you are meant to do, but an opportunity to grow in what you do.